Since April 5, 2016, I’ve been in pain. Some days at level 1 others at level 10. I have gone through test after test. Endured a few rounds of physical therapy and still not getting answers. My test results have shown multiple issues in my back and arm where the bulk of my pain is. The doctors only say basically, by the book they studied from, it shouldn’t be hurting as bad as I say. 
Well, let me tell you that the book is not shit when it comes to a real life person. Do you not have the common sense to see that! I am not over exaggerating. My tears are real and my pain is definitely not imagined. My MRIs have shown things from herniated disks too indications that a bone in my wrist look to have been broken but healed incorrectly on its own. 

All this from not being properly checked after the wreck. Here we are 10 months from the wreck and they still on bull crap. 

I am beginning to wonder if my friend was right. They may not be taking it seriously because I have Bipolar disorder and think I’m overly exaggerating. I’ve never went to the doctor and complained and nothing be wrong. I don’t exactly like going to the doctor or taking medicine. I have test results that back every complaint. 

I haven’t worked in months. My husband is trying his best to keep things afloat. The only thing I had left to do was teach swimming because I was already limited from multiple knee and hernia surgeries. Keep in my mind one of them is damaged, causing me to limp more from the accident. Our savings are running thin. We have 2 college students and a senior in high school. All 3 are trying to help but they need to focus on studies and paying for their day to day. I mean they can only work part time. I hope they will fix what is wrong, I can heal and help my husband before we lose everything we own. It’s rolling around to spring and I may not be able to teach swim or coach another summer. 

     I started this blog shortly before my accident April 5, 2016. I haven’t been able to blog much because it hurts to even hold my phone. I am now nearing the end of my 6 week physical therapy section. This is my second one. I’m in long term therapy so I will get a check up, then have to start physical therapy all over again. 
     I spent the early evening having dye and lidocaine injected into my shoulder. After that they did x-rays. I was then walked down to MRI once I was dressed. I had two 40-45 minute MRIS. On my shoulder for the second time in 3 months, then on my wrist. 

     I’m hoping they can find what is going on with my wrist. They previously found a meniscus tear from in my shoulder, but want to check for tendon and ligament damage. My wrist into my thumb and first finger swell, go numb and hurt until I’m nearly punching a wall for relief. On top of that the knee that was injured in the wreck is having issues. I had 3 surgeries on it over the last 6 yrs and I know that the meniscus is torn loose that was stitched down. I can feel it catching when I try to cross my legs at the ankle. 
     Then on top of all this I regain 35 lbs. The doctor wants me to lose like 100 lbs. I haven’t been able to work as a swim coach or water safety Instructor but like 1 week since the wreck. I’m scared we are going to lose everything we own. Everything we had saved has been almost used. My 3 kids are wonderful. They have been going to school and working full time jobs. I’m so proud. One of my daughters is expecting any day now and just took off for maternity leave. She’s having contractions on and off already and has been for like 3 weeks now. 
     I’m trying to keep my head up and remember someone else has it worse. My husband has noticed that my moods as really cycling out and I’m getting depressed. I just want my arm better so I can use it. 
I’m going to try and do better and follow the doctors’ order. Which means I should be posting here frequently to get my feelings out instead of keeping stuff in until I have a complete meltdown.